Cause my heart is damaged, damaged, damaged, damaged
I thought that I should let you know
That my heart is damaged, damaged, so damaged, so damaged
And you can blame the one before
So how you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it?
(Its that time of pain)
How you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it?
(That you feel deep inside)
How you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it?
How you gonna fix it, fix it, fix it?
(Its that time of pain)(That makes you pray, makes you cry)
This Danity Kane bit came to me at my step and sculpt class this morning. First note - the class. I loved the class! It was worth getting up in this awful dark morning to go. Loved that it mixed cardio and strength training, but best of all I loved all the squats we did. I'm determined to have a better finer behind. =) The instructor said something that was so enlightening. She said "of course its hard - its excercise! you're the only one that can get you there - so do it!" If I want to get the results I want, I need to put in the work. Just you see, I'll get there.
Second note - damage. I do feel like my heart is damaged and I want him to know. Today is the first day since it happened that I have cried. More than crying, I miss him that wretched person who broke my heart. I know we ended mutually and on good terms, but I was forced to this end. I feel damaged. I want to be strong because I am strong. I want to be on the high-road because I don't ride low. I want to be over it because feeling this kills my soul. I'm not there yet though because all I can think is how I need you know. (Lady Antebellum why you speak to me)
Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor
Reachin' for the phone 'cause I can't fight it anymore
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time
It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now
Guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothin' at all
It's a quarter after one I'm all alone and I need you now
And I said I wouldn't call but I'm a little drunk and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now
But you don't deserve me, not now, not anymore.
Love + Peace -ll
1 comments:
L:
You are more amazing than you know. Its okay to cry, you have to grieve at some point. Clean you soul. Heal your wounds. It allows you to move forward.
And you are right...he doesn't deserve you or your finer rear end. ;-)
:K
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