Lead Me

What makes you think that doing what you did was ok.

What makes you think that we don't care.

What makes you think that your actions have no consequences.

What makes you think that its fair.

Now a dear friend has to go through the same nasty thing I did. Why. Why. Men you need to end it. Just end it now. It was bad with me and now someone else? When is it ever going to stop? End it now. All it does is breaks dreams, people and self-esteem. All it does is creates pain, tears, anger, and fears. All it does is makes it hard to trust someone again, to love someone again.

But you know what - the more I move forward the more I see that it was a blessing in painful disguise. Would I want you to lie next to me but not really be there? No. Would I want you to ruin our marriage? No. Would I want you to walk out on our kids? No. So even though I felt the pain, I know that I am starting to feel the blessings too, and I know that I'll continue to feel the blessings tomorrow and all the days to come.

I know you're out there my God-chosen husband-to-be. And I know that no one is perfect. But what I need is for you to notice, realize and try. Because as my best friend, my caring partner, my loving husband, a man of God and spiritual leader I need you to love and lead our family, I need you to love me and lead me...

I look around and see my wonderful life
Almost perfect from the outside
In picture frames I see my beautiful wife
Always smiling
But on the inside, I can hear her saying

"Lead me with strong hands
Stand up when I can't
Don't leave me hungry for love
Chasing dreams, what about us?

Show me you're willing to fight
That I'm still the love of your life
I know we call this our home
But I still feel alone."

I see their faces, look in their innocent eyes
They're just children from the outside
I'm working hard, I tell myself they'll be fine
They're independent
But on the inside, I can hear them saying

"Lead me with strong hands
Stand up when I can't
Don't leave me hungry for love
Chasing dreams, what about us?

Show me you're willing to fight
That I'm still the love of your life
I know we call this our home
But I still feel alone."

So Father, give me the strength
To be everything I am called to be
Oh, Father, show me the way
To lead them
Won't you lead me?

To lead them with strong hands
To stand up when they can't
Don't want to leave them hungry for love
Chasing dreams that I could give up

I'll show them I'm willing to fight
And give them the best of my life
So we can call this out home
Lead me, 'cause I can't do this alone

Father, lead me, 'cause I can't do this alone

I can't wait til the day you and I can be together and start the greatest journey of our lives.

Love + Peace - ll